20F, I love being humiliated and degraded, but it's so hard to talk about

My first boyfriend that I had sex with was at 15. As he termed it he "popped my cherry" in my pussy, my mouth and my asshole. He got to where he was not letting me have any time to myself. I had to take care of his sexual needs before even doing my own homework. It was expected and he told me that is what it's like for a woman, a real woman, not a girl. I was to take "care of him". I was sucking his cock every morning as we'd park before going into school and then sometimes at lunch he'd take me into some closet or somewhere and fuck me. Then in the evening he wanted to fuck. He was a senior at 18 I was 14 when we started dating, then at my 15th birthday he took my virginity. I did blow him twice before my birthday, just a few days before. Two days later on a friday night in the backseat of his car, me on my stomach, blouse and bra pulled up above my C cup tits, skirt raise up above my butt, and panties pulled off. My feet were hanging outside the car as he got on top of me and pushed his cock into my butt. I started crying and asking him to stop but he wouldn't.

The summer after he graduated he had his parents house to himself and his brother. I went over and he stripped me naked and was fucking me with his bedroom door open. His brother walked in just as my BF was finishing "your turn" my bf told his brother. I was still there with my legs spread open, knees up, and my shaved pussy on display having just been fucked and seeded. I didn't have time to think or do anything and his brother was in between my legs, pushing an even bigger cock into my pussy. I started to say something and he silenced me by kissing me. He came and got off me. I didn't realize but my BF took my clothes out of the room. I went out naked, my still tight pussy holding in both of their cumloads. I was so embarrassed to be in front of them both just standing there naked. I went for my clothes on a chair and the brother grabbed me and sat me between them. They had on a gangbang video and I was watching as we were drinking beer. Then they dropped down shots. I got drunk and they were talking how they'd like to see me do what was on the video. Within an hour there were 5 other guys there. BF took me into the bedroom, fucked me again and sent in the guys one after the other, as often as they wanted. Some went in my mouth the first time, others in my pussy, but they all got off in me both ways. The brother went last pulling me out of the bedroom and onto the living room floor in front of all the drunken guys and me drunk too. He buttfucked me in front of them all. I heard them talking and hooting "Look at that slut, she takes it up her shithole too" and even worse things. They were calling me a slut, whore, buttfucked slut and my boyfriend added in "She's just a cumwhore now, a totally fucked piece of cum meat". With that the brother pulled out of my ass, rolled me over and shot his load on my face. I tried to wipe it off and they wouldn't let me. Four of the guys took me back in the bedroom one at a time and buttfucked me too. I heard them when they left talking about the hot cumwhore in the back room.

After that I did anything, anything any guy wanted I fucked, buttfucked, sucked cock, even let an older woman eat her husbands cum from my pussy. She also made me do housework naked. Her husband would grab me, bend me over and fuck either lower hole then walk away, leaving me to get spanking from the wife for being "such a whorish slut" then get back to cleaning. I had to eat her pussy while he watched sometimes he was fucking me too. They had three other couples in their private swing club and all 8 people were having sex with me. I was naked cleaning for two houses now, and one was this really nice, beautiful wife of only 24. I really didn't mind having sex with her, she was beautiful and had such a lovely pussy. But she had a mean streak. One day she tied me over an ottoman in the living room, with a blanket under me, and had over 5 other women who watched while she brought in a dog to fuck me. I was crying and begging not to, but the first time the dog got in my pussy, then pulled out and it went into my ass he was rapid pounding my asshole and dumped his cum in there then swelled up. The women were all laughing at me tied with the dog, and calling me names. They were calling me filthy disgusting names and telling me that I only deserved dog cock that any man who would fuck me now was doing after dogs. I got fucked three times by that dog that day twice in my ass and once in my pussy. His knot puled right out of my pussy, I wasn't tight enough for him to get tied. Those women, men, couples passed me around like I was some plaything. I was to them, just someone to make them cum.

It was that older woman the first one, who made me go out to the park and pee my jeans and walk back slowly with her my stains darkening my jeans. I heard some kids say "she peed her pants" and laugh as they looked back and pointed at me.

The thing now is that I like being humiliated, I like being degraded. That older woman had me fuck twice with homeless men. I was staying at her house with her and her husband, she let one of the man keep me for the night. I had to blow him and two others and I got fucked throughout the night by the three of them in my pussy and my ass. She picked me up at 10 the next morning, took off my clothes and rode me home in panties only, cum all over my tits and in my panties front and back and on my face. It was dried up as her husband made me stand there in my panties in their living room. His wife jacked his cock while he held open the front of my panties showing my now hairy pussy. He shot into my panties and she made me keep them on and not clean up. Finally at 7 o'clock before eating she let me change and get a shower, I came out with all the dried cum off my body, out of my pussy and hair.

I cum from it now. I never came before until those women watched me with the dog. I came when the dog fucked my pussy, other than my hand on my clit that was the first time. After that I could cum whenever I was being used or abused for someone elses pleasure. I liked when people see me and laugh at me, call me names - my pussy gets wet. The beautiful woman and the older woman like that I can cum now, but the younger one won't lick me anymore, she'll use her fingers but doesn't want to risk anything. I know it's because of watching me with dogs now three times, and knowing that the other woman makes me fuck random men including dirty, scraggly homeless men.
I am a humiliated, degraded slut at only 20.