M32, decided I want to let someone fuck my butt

I've always had women and girls back at 15 I did fuck a friend of mine who was 15 also. Fucked him for about a year every chance I could get. But that was the only one. I ended up fucking his virgin sister in all three holes, and once spending the night I went out after I fucked him and his mom had me playing with her hairy cunt. She wouldn't let me fuck her but did promise me a BJ which i got the next afternoon. I tried to put one of my girlfriends dildoes in my ass, she took it slow but it hurt. I couldn't take but about 3 inches of it.

I took pictures of my body and my spread open ass and put it online to see if anyone wants to take my anal virginity. I want to suck the man first too. I want to feel a man's cum exploding from his cock into my mouth. I saw some men posting little cock pictures. That is what I want. I want to find someone who has a small, thin cock. I want to suck him and swallow his cum, and I want him to fuck me in my ass. I'd like to have him fuck me several times and suck him several times. Then move on to a bigger one. I really want to suck a cock and get fucked by one, but the first one has to be small.

Then I got an answer. Granted there was a very small cock, only about 3/4 inch thick (which I liked, being a novice) and less than 4 inches long when hard. The thing is that it was a transwoman. Well, girl or gurl really. She is 18 and has tiny little natural A cup titties with nickel sized areolae and pencil eraser nipples. She is a brunette, has has past her shoulders, is very very feminine and super attractive. Her body is like a girls, thinner at the waist. With girls and women I'd always been a leg and ass man. Her legs are really hot and the cheeks of her ass are to die for. I want to fuck her. I asked if we got along if I could have sex with her too and she initially said no. She prefers to be a gurl, but when she gets sucked, and/or fucks a man, she usually doesn't let him reverse the roles. I want her to be the one, the one to take my virginity in my mouth and my butt. I want to fuck her though, she's so damn hot and alluring. She says she doesn't really like gay men, she prefers straight men. I gave her my history and that I'm straight, but she says that if I want to get fucked, and to suck cock and swallow sperm, I'm gay. I'm thinking of letting her do it anyway.