my sex life or lack of it in 50 years of marriage

the story of my sex life over the last 50 years , all the shocks and disappointments

This is a true story of my married sex life , or rather the lack of a sex life ,, So here goes , I met my wife in 1975 , I was was 18 and still a virgin , we were friends for a few months before actually getting together , after a couple of dates , she jokingly said while we were in a roadside cafe , you better get something and later on we will find out if you are a man or a mouse , I couldn't believe my ears , and went straight to the toilets to buy condoms , later that evening we got dropped off at my home ,my parents were away ,so we had the place to ourselves , we started kissing etc and then I slid my hand into her pants , she immediately opened her legs wide , and to say she was dripping wet would be understatement , I pulled her pants down to just below the knees and climbed on top of her , I needed no guidance for my cock as it slipped into what seemed a cavernous hole , about 3 prods later I shot my load , so I quickly took it out and searched my pockets for the condoms , after I pulled one out she said , you don't need that I'm On the Pill .. tbh I was shocked I had been assuming mistakenly that she was a virgin , how wrong was that , having deflated I made up some crappy story about fearing getting her pregnant and I thought she might be trying to trick me about the pill ,, we had a few hard words and spent the rest of the night not speaking , then In the Morning i gave her a lift home on my motorbike and we seemed to get along ok I asked to see her that night and she agreed , I was on holiday that week , so I spent the afternoon , replaying last night in my mind , and wound up masturbating at the thought ,but also thinking If I got another chance today i may be able to last longer , anyway i did get another chance . she agreed to stay the night again and showed me her Pills and said I hope you believe me now , after and evening out with friends we got dropped off at my home again , this time we had a drink and went up to my bed , once again it was like a sopping wet cavernous hole , and once again 3 or 4 prods and I shot my load . but unlike the day before the erection remained firm and I managed to keep going until the sensation came back . I'm pretty sure I made her cum as well but she never said . just asked if I had cum inside her and when i said I had .she said good so you believe me now . and i knew you had anyway because my hole went slippery with it ,,pass me my bag I always carry spare pants in there just in case and these i have just put back on are soaking wet , she went to the bathroom I guess to clean herself up . meanwhile I lay back exhausted but very happy , when she came back she said I must go home tonight because i have an appointment tomorrow . but I'll be free again about five tomorrow , I said fine ill come meet you somewhere she no bother Ill come here just be home , when i got home after dropping her off .I found a small book under by my bedside , it was her diary , curiosity killed the cat so they say and mine led me to read the diary ,, it was a shock , details of every bloke she had been with and there were a lot , it also included a lesbian encounter with her best friend , and the 2 of them having a threesome with some lucky chap ,, I waited for her to arrive next day with a massive bulge in my pants , when she arrived she was in a posh car , she leaned over kissed the driver and then got out and came to the door , when I asked who it was she said OH that's the man next door he was coming over so he gave me a lift , bulge in my pants was now fully in control and she hardly had time to sit down ,before my hand was in her pants , they were soaking wet so was her hole . I thought maybe like me she had anticipated and that was the reason , anyway more or less Immediately we went to the bedroom , I asked if she had ever had a 69 , she said no although I know she had from her diary , but she said try anything once , I'm not sure what a 69 is just don't come on my mouth . I lay on top of her she put my cock in here mouth but didn't move . I started licking her and she groaned I knew she had come because her legs twitched and her hole had aswell . immediately she took my cock from her mouth and said put it in hurry up , which I did , seconds later i unloaded , we got up and she went into the shower , we went downstairs and had coffee she was scribbling in her diary , when I brought the coffee in . later that evening I took a sneaky look in the diary and almost threw up, she had had sex in a layby with the married bloke who dropped her off , and I had licked his cum out of her , some of the other things her diary made her sexual encounters read like the script of a porn film ,,2 blokes in 1 day was the norm , and she had lost her virginity at 15 to a lad across the road in the course of 4 years she had gone through about 20 blokes .including a black lad . and one evening a gay lad who she let fuck her up the arse . we went out for a good few months and spent a couple of nights having sex mulitple times . one evening at the cinema I said we could get married . she said is that a proposal ,I said I suppose it is , so we were getting engaged , and pretty soon she was planning our wedding , we got married 2 years after meeting . a time which looking back she did a few rather unkind things . driving around used to make her randy , and more than once i had pout my hand down her pants while we were driving along and she said pull over somewhere and you can have a good feel , this of course was what she wanted , but she would never engage with me and either give me a hand job or suck me off . once she had cum herself she would just say stop and pull her pants up and say come on lets go , another unkind thing was brining home porn mags from the girls at work lettting me look/read them and then not letting me touch her , by the time we actually got married I was rationed to once every month or two , then the biggest disappointment of my life my wedding night , after having all she wanted for her wedding day , we went to a hotel for a night as we were leaving for majorca next afternoon , I made the moves expected on a wedding night and was told in no uncertain terms NO ,i'm too tired , the refusals continued throughout the week of our honeymoon with varied excuses too tired sunburnt and finally my period has started . once we got home , the ration extended to once every 2 or 3 months , then the shocker a routine smear test came back with abnormal cells , and an operatiion followed called a cone biopsy , the surgeon said no sex for 6 weeks , and the likely cause was a lot of different sperms , well 6 weeks became 1 and a half years because I was blamed for the abnormal cells . by this time she had been off the pill for 6 years as the doctor had recommended a break shortly after we were married , anyway after six years of marriage she decided it was time to have a baby , the surgeon told us conceiving after the minor op may be difficult ., massive disappoinment again , 1 try and she was pregnant . no sex for another year , and now the ration was every 6 months , I put up with the starvation until we decided on another baby 4 years later when once again massive disappointment with a one try success . after this no sex for 5 years , and never once did she question why I did not try such was her selfishness . then 1 evening I asked can we have an early night ? she said NO , I said its been a long time and she said its my body and I don't want to ,, that was the final straw for me . after 40 years of disappoiments . I had always been too shy to speak about sex . but I just lost it and blurted out . OH yes its your body and it the one I married and made promises to about remaining faithful and keeping myself only unto her her , with my Body i the worship , so your body doesn't want to , well mine does , and if you won't do it then Ill find somebody who will , I have never troubled you for a real sex life just held back and gone frustrated for months even years sometimes , Ive done everything you asked visiting old churches shopping , and every other boring thing under the sun but you cant give me 10 minutes of your time ,because you dont want to ,, but no more . starting this week Im going out on Fridays and if I don't come back you'll know Ive succeeded In finding someone normal . if you don:t like it ...Tough pack a bag and fuck off i've put up with your shit for far too long .. come friday off I went . when I came back quite late she was waiting . I knew what she wanted to say but wouldn't so I said , no no luck this week but Ill try again next . she then said . well ok if it bothers you that much you can have ten minutes . I accepted stupidly it was dreadful it was like shagging a bag of spuds , and now I was back in that never ending loop , all too soon the refusals and excuses started again . I'm 72 now and have had a lifetime of disappointments . if you're young and started down a similar road , take my advice , bail out now !!!