My awakening

This is my true story the story of a small town wife. A bbw wife that was told no one would ever have any other man . My husband drove me to him .

I am a small town wife and yes i am a bigger woman in my thirties. I have always been a bigger woman and well before I got married I had a few sexual partners I was definitely a sexual person. My husband was a by the we numbers kinda guy in the bedroom and I was a little more experienced in some areas and I loved doing a few things in the bedroom and well he was really into at first. Then he got to the point where he started calling me names and telling me i was dirty for doing them and well I kinda stopped doing them. As time went on he started to slow down in the bedroom and well he started telling me how ugly and fat I was and well after that we stopped everything. I got married when I was in my early twenties and now I was in my thirties and I have to admit I have to admit I have always had a very big sex drive and well it was getting even bigger and I just didn't know what to do. I started trying to spice things up in the bedroom so I bought some stuff like some sexy nighties and some lingerie and stuff like that but all that happened was him calling me names and telling me how fat I was and how much of a slut and I was for trying to look like that. Well after that I kinda gave up . We didn't have any kids and we'll I really wanted to be a mom and we'll finally I asked him to go to the doctor with me and he just refused. Well after that I just kinda gave up . I starting doing things to try to satisfy my self i bought some toys and while he was at work I started having my private time I started watching a few movies on my laptop and using them to pleasure myself and it kinda worked. I starting doing other things to try to settle myself down i started smoking again I quit a few years ago and well I need something. I starting smoking but I definitely went a little feather then before. I started smoking 120s my mom smoked them and well I started smoking them with her . My husband was shocked seeing me for the first time telling me only those kind of woman smoke them kinda cigarettes and well I just kinda thought well I guess I am then. I think it was my first push back against him he told me I had to stop but I didn't and after about a week he stopped saying anything about it. Well after that I started going to counseling and well she started telling me i was definitely not ugly and fat but I figured she was getting paid to say that but as time went on she started to help me feel a little better about myself and how I felt and yes I was definitely a very good looking woman. I guess that is when I started to change a little bit. I started dressing very different when I went to town when he was a work and I started fixing my hair and we'll I even started warning makeup again. I have to admit I started to feel like a woman again and yes I even started to feel a little sexy. I started wearing the sexy bras and panties I bought for my husband under my clothes and just knowing that I had them on made me feel sexer. I starting getting myself turned on thinking about it and thinking about people watching me . It really got me very excited. As soon as I would get home I would go to my room and strip down to my bra and panties and use my toys and I would go crazy I was having several orgasoms in a row it was getting to the point to were I was not even getting home . I was at the mall and well I ended up wearing leggings and I didn't notice it till I was in the mall and you could see my panties though them and you could definitely tell it had on a thong. I noticed a couple of guys were watching me as I tried to hide myself and we'll they were definitely interested in me and they even asked me to go with them but I was to dumb at that time to just go for it i was so embarrassed but the more I thought about it the more turned on I was getting. As I was driving home and I couldn't stop thinking about it and I was getting hotter by the second. I starting thinking I needed to relieve myself i tired to calm down i lit up a cigarette and I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I got on back road going to the house and I just couldn't control myself I pulled off and I started to touch myself. I thought to myself what are you doing it was brod daylight. To be honest not that many people used that road and well if anyone came i would be able to stop in time. I just kinda leaned back in my seat and I started to rub myself and it felt so sexy thinking about everything the guys at the mall the possibility of getting cought it all made me feel so hot . Then I slipped my hand down in the waistband of my leggings and I started to feel my hair sticking up on my arms like static electric going down my body. I starting to explore myself one hand was inside my leggings and I slept the other one under my top and started to explore my boobs my nipples we so hard and needed a little attention as well and before long I had my panties pulled aside and my fingers were coursing my kitty and it didn't take me long before I starting cumming my leggings were soaking wet and so was my seat. I came back to reality and I drove the rest of the way home. As soon as I got home I just couldn't control myself I went to my bedroom and well I started again I stripped and I started watching a movie and starting to explore myself with my toys and I always watched bbw stuff and i ended up cumming again. I was laying on the bed smoking a cigarette and another video came on and I started watching it and well to be honest I was kinda new to a lot of things and I do have a couple of things I really enjoyed doing and one of them is i love blowjobs I have always been a cum lover and I do watch cum shooting porn. I was watching one and this bbw was sucking off a guy and he started pushing her boobs to her mouth and she started sucking her own nipples and stuff . I started really watching it because to be honest I love it when I got my nipples sucked on during sex I had never done it or even thought about it but i do have big boobs and well I just thought I can't I am not a lesbian or nothing like this. But the more I watched he liked it and so did she and well he was kinda the one who started it but then she did it her self and she ended up cumming doing it. Well after that my husband called and said he was going to be late and he was eating dinner with his coworkers at the bar and I didn't have to stay up to wait on him. I just remembered thinking more playtime for me. I ended just letting a few more movies play and one of them was a big girl like me solo and she was going to town and she started playing with and she ended up sucking her own nipples as well. All that night and the next day I couldn't stop thinking about it and well I just thought no no way. A few days later I went shopping again this time I was a little more moderate but I did show a little more cleavage than normal. Well I just kinda glance at myself in the mirror every once in a while and yes you could see my lacy bra and well I noticed i had a few watchers but they were just making fun of me but I didn't care I felt sexy. I got home and I was getting ready to take a shower so I kinda ended up laying on the bed naked . I decided to smoke a cigarette first well I ended up getting a little horny and I started watching a video and I started to play with my toys and I started rubbing my nipples like I always do . I always fantasize about someone sucking them when I do that yes i have played with them but never anything else I started really getting excited and my boobs were bouncing on my face and well my mouth was open and my nipple hit my lips and the wetness felt so freaking amazing I just kinda did it i pushed my boobds up to my mouth and kinda licked them. It felt so amazing and without thinking about it I started sucking on one and then the other one and it felt so freaking amazing I had a huge organism and well I ended up being one of those kind of woman lol. I do it all the time now if I am with a guy or not and yes guys love it when I do it . Well that brings me to what happened to change my life. It all began about a year and a half ago. My husband and his coworkers started a fantasy football thing and well they did it at our house and I cooked most of the time for the get togethers . One of his coworkers helped me he was really a nice guy and well we got along well and my husband started pushing us to do more stuff and he didn't even notice what was happening. It all kinda happened by accident but I definitely wanted it again and again after the first time. We started a day before the game planning what we were going to cook and we started to become friends and to be honest my husband never really liked him anyway. My husband is very racist and he is black but he loved his cooking. We cooked to gather every weekend and well we started talking and before long we became friends. At first my husband dud the shopping or I did it though the week. I would go on my sexy shopping trip lol. Well one weekend we needed some stuff and i asked my husband if he wanted to go he said you can go . I said you sure about this he said it fine he wouldn't have anything to do with you anyway. It kinda made me feel mad when he said that when I turned around his coworker was standing there he just smiled. I told him I would be back. I went upstairs and I fixed my hair and yes I put on some makeup and I went back down my husband never even looked at me. We went in his car and he started telling me how sorry he was for what my husband said. I said why would you be sorry. He said sorry for him he doesn't know what he has . I said what are you saying. He said you you are a very beautiful woman and I would definitely not say something like that to you any man would have you i don't mean to sound bad or anything like that but you are a very wonderful person. I thanked him for his compliments and we started talking more about my situation and at the store we had fun and laughed yes we had a very good time. We smoked a cigarette on the way home and I noticed he was really checking me out and believe me I started taking notice of him he was younger than me and he was a very sexy man and he was really a hot looking guy. We started hanging out together more and my husband started pushing us to do more and little did he know he started pushing us together. Well after a while he asked me for my number and we started texting. We were just friends and well after a while i started watching interracial movies and having fantasies about him and I started having urges to do things with him. We were cooking one night and my husband was in the living room and he really started arguing with me and he started calling me names and well I guess if you call someone something they become it if you know what I mean. His coworker started telling me he is so wrong about you you are a very beautiful woman and I think he needs to know that. I lit up a cigarette and he came over to me and we'll we ended up hugging and he kissed me. I kinda jumped at first and he pulled away and started to apologize. I looked at him and said no you're fine it just kinda startled me. We looked at each other for a few minutes before we could do anything else my husband came in. He left and later that night he texted me. He asked me if I was ok and I said yes. My husband asked me who I was texting and I said it was my sister. I changed my phone tag so when he texted me it came up sis . I told him and he put up laughing emoji. I smiled and texted him back it was so nice to hear your compliments I haven't had a man say anything nice to me in a long time. He said I have to admit you are a very good looking woman. Then I said you are not just saying that are you telling me the truth. He told me about this website and he said go on it you will see there are men out there that love bigger woman and baby I do . We said goodnight and I ended up going on it to see and he was right there were and he was on it . I made up a fake listing and looked at some of the other guys and well I am now a member and I meet guys on there all the time. Well the next day we started talking about the next game and well Saturday we were going to go shopping for some stuff and my husband was at the bar and I decided to put on my sexy stuff under my clothes and I fixed my hair and put on my makeup and he came over and got me . We did our normal stuff together laughing and fooling around and when we got back in his car he said you are one sexy lady. I knew he could see i was wearing a thong under my leggings and you could definitely see the top of my lacy bra and well my husband called and asked me when we were coming home. That ended everything that night but I was hoping he noticed i was really hoping he was interested in me. We got home and he did really say anything he just said I will text you later. I was a little bummed did i mess it up did i come on to strong. That night I waited for my phone to bing then it did but it was definitely different usually it was hay beautiful but this time it was hay sexy. I felt my face blush a little bit. I texted him back hi hottie. He didn't talk like he normally did he just said we need to spend the day together have a little fun together. I thought for a few minutes and I started let's meet a the park he said ok. He then asked me for a picture I was a little nervous about it but my husband was passed out so I ended up getting up and sending him a picture of me in one of my nighties. He texted me back oh my yummy. I texted him me too hot stuff. He sent me one and it was very hot. We said goodnight and well I had to sneak down to my car and pleasure myself in the garage. The next day I told my husband the football season is over and I want to go to the the local resort for a spa trip with you. He just said go by your self. I just smiled and said you sure you don't want to go with me. He just looked at me and said have fun. I smiled and said oh I will. Little did he know what I was really going to do it didn't know what I would have done if he said he would go . Well that night I texted him and told him we could meet at that place but I didn't say anything about having the whole weekend together i wanted to see what would happen first. Well Friday finally came i told him I would meet him there so I packed my sexy nighties and some lingerie and sexy dresss and I got ready I put on my thong and leggings and a top that showed a little cleavage with one of my lacy bras and a pair of wedges. I cheaked in to the room and they asked me if someone was joining me and I said yes I booked it for two. I met him at the lake i was sitting on a bench smoking a cigarette and he sat down and said you along sexy woman. I smiled and said not for long i hope. We talked and walked around we started holding hands and we started kissing. We ended up getting in his car and things started getting a little hotter we started kissing again and yes are youngsters started touching each other and I opened my mouth and started sucking on his . It had been a long time since I had done that my husband never did that with me. I stopped for a minute and said that he was the first guy I was with since I got married and my first black guy. All I could think about at that time was how my husband would feel knowing I was with a black man but I don't care i wanted it as much as he wanted me. He smiled and said i will show how a real man pleasures a woman . We started kissing again and I felt his hands on my legs and it felt strange at first I havnt had felt a man's hands touching me in a long time. I was nervous but excited at the same time. I said my hand down on his leg and wow I felt his manhood it was true he was so freaking big I didn't know if I was going to be able to go through with it or not but I was so freaking horny I just couldn't stop. Before long I felt his other hand on my chest and it felt so amazing to have him touching me and we were both exploring each other's bodies. Before long his hand was under my top and I could feel his fingers coursing my nipples and I was definitely getting hotter by the second. It didn't take me long to undo his pants and pulled out his huge cock i started to play with it a little it was so freaking amazing he started to moan a little. Then I felt his hand going down my leggings and his finger was playing with my kitty. I let out a little moan of my own and he whispered in my ear it's been to long hasn't it baby. I just remember saying yes God yes . I haven't and before I could say anything he pushed his finger inside me. I couldn't say anything I just moaned with pleasure and I opened my legs to allow him more access to me. I was going crazy I was trusting agents his hand making him go deeper into me he went deeper and deeper faster and harder and then I started to tell him but before I could say anything you could her squishing sounds . He said good baby you needed that . I had cum for a man for the first time in years. I cought my breath and I said your turn now baby. I went down on him and I started sucking his cock i started working on it licking and sucking on it and trying to get as much of it in my mouth as I could. He said you're pretty good at this baby. Then I felt his hands coursing my but and then I felt his hand go back down my leggings and he started pushing his fingers inside me again. It gave me more insensitive and I ended up getting more of his cock in my mouth and throat. He started moaning and bucking and saying that I was definitely doing a good job. It was like riding a bike and wow before long I was almost all the way down to his balls. I starting playing with his balls milking them i wanted his cum i wanted him to cum in my mouth. Before long he started telling me he was going to cum. I stopped for a second looked at him and I want it and I started again I felt him teasing up so I pulled back a little so just the head was in my mouth and I felt his cum shooting in the back of my mouth and throat I just started talking it i didn't waste any of it he just kept cumming and wow it was amazing. He said you are definitely not what I expected. I starting to apologize and he said no baby I love it. I told him about my past and how my husband was . He said baby I am glad I got you away from that before you just gave up. I told him about the room and well we went to the room and he said let's go to dinner i got dressed up in one of the dresses I brought and some of the sexy bras and panties and we went. After that we got a little turned on in the car again but we ended up getting back to the room. I told him I need to use the bathroom and I went in and put on one of the nighties i brought. As soon as he saw me his eyes lit up and he said you are one sexy lady. We started kissing but this time we started French kissing right off as soon as I hit the bed his hands were all over me and mine as well. We were just like two wild animals and there was nothing going to stop us. We didn't have much four play this time he laid me down on the bed and I just couldn't control my I opened my legs and allowed him access me . He said I didn't know what was going to happen and I didn't bring any condoms or anything. I just looked at him and said I don't care i want you. The truth is I didn't think I could get pregnant anyway. He started to go inside me slowly at first it felt like ripping me it was definitely searching me it hurt a little bit. He said are you okay. I don't know what to say so I didn't really say anything I just moaned a little bit then he went a little deeper and then he started going deeper with each stroke and it hurt me a little bit but it felt so good too I started moaning louder and louder when each stroke till he was all the way inside me. It felt like he was in my stomach and it felt so amazing. He started trusting a little more and I started telling him how much I enjoyed it because long i felt something inside me pop he was in my cervix and it was so freaking amazing but he got stuck he started telling me that but I don't care I started trusting against him and he started telling me to stop because it was going to make him cum . I told him I didn't care I started telling him to cum in me just do it . He smiled and said ok and he started to push a little and I started to push back and I felt it his cum shooting deep inside me. That was the first time I ever felt a man cumming inside me . It was so amazing. Well the rest of the weekend I eather swallowed his cum or I took it inside me and yes it was a lot more than forty times. Well after that we stopped seeing each other because I started going out with other guys I met on that site and I didn't use condoms and the reason I am now separated is because I am now pregnant and yes with out a doubt it is a black baby and I will love it no matter what. I have a very good idea who's baby it is but I am not telling. It's been five months since that weekend and well. That's my story of how my life changed.