I can't believe this happened.

I'm 39 and pregnant but my husband is sterile, so how did this happen.

My husband wants it gone, but I can't kill a baby I just can't. It's a human life that's growing in me, not some bug on the window, even if I have no idea how it happened. We got married young, I was fresh out of high school at 18, and my husband was 20 when we married. Yes I was pregnant but only by 2 months, so I wasn't showing or anything like that. Our first born was our son, but then after 3 miscarriages I finally give birth to our little girl some 9 years after our son.

I thought we had the prefect family as did my husband, so he went to the doctor and 20 minutes later we didn't have to worry about birth control pills, or whatever and no condoms, god I hated when we had to used condoms. I think my husband hated them even more, because he said they were mood killers, which I had to agree with him on that. I guess I could've got him hard then put the condom on for him before giving him more head, but just the feel of that rubber in my mouth made me want to throw up.

We went through life with baseball then football for our son, who by the way is like his dad and a very large guy. My husband is 6-3 and about 220 the last he told me, with our daughter more like me. See I'm 5-3 and 120 or so. I love to stay fit, so I run 2 miles every other day, and do a dance class thing at the Y twice a week, plus do weighs as well. But that said a I stupid woman more concerned about her text messages then the road, ran into me knocking me 10 feet through the air or so I was told, before I landed on the curb. I had 3 broken ribs and my hip out of joint, so ya I was in a lot of pain. My ribs healed, my hip was put back in place but I found out later that I have nerve damage in my back, which they hope in time will heal as well.

My son helped me with just about everything, and if not him then my daughter did a lot of the housework, which also helped. I was on some strong pain killers and strong sleeping pills, because I just couldn't sleep. My husband has to be up by 4am to be out the door by 5am to get to work by 7. I wish we could live closer to his work, but that's what the call a gangbanger area, plus our house is so nice I would hate to give it up, and our pool as well.

Anyway my son got to where when my husband left, he would come lay next to me until he had to be up for school. I thought nothing of waking up with his arm over me holding me to him, I mean why should I worry about it, he's my son for fucks sake. Anyway when he turned 18 he started sleeping without PJ's saying that was for little kids, and I guess something else changed as well. See I sleep in a over size t-shirt the goes down almost the my knees without panties, unless I'm on my monthly that is. So I remember waking up one morning feeling very wet between my legs, which when I got into my bathroom I found it to be cum. Well my husband and me haven't had sex in over a week, so I thought it was from him maybe in his sleep. It had happened once before when I was laid up, so I was sure it had to be that.

I had my monthly and it wasn't 3 days later when I woke I felt like I had cum in me, but I thought it had to be my husband getting off in the middle of the night without being able to wake me. It happened maybe 2 dozen times over a couple months, so I asked my husband with him laughing telling me I must he dreaming of my lover, because he wouldn't do anything like that. Well I know that's not true because he did just that after we were married. I woke up having a huge orgasm with him fucking the shit out of me. Whatever as long as he's happy because we all know, happy husband happy life, right? But with me taking those sleeping pills, if I get woke up I go right back to sleep

Then my period didn't happen, just a tiny spot on one pad and that was it, I thought maybe I was going through the change very early. I then remember thinking I was having the best wet dream ever, as even in my dream was having orgasm after orgasm, when I hit me I wasn't dreaming, and it was happening for real. I thought ok hubby go ahead and do your best, which seemed to be much better then it has been in a very long time. I can orgasm somewhat easily, but I have ever had a run like this before. I felt his hand between my legs as he was rubbing my clit, as I came once again as I moaned for him to fuck me hard. He pushed in very hard as the head of his cock was rubbing my cervix or it felt like it, and that hadn't happen in over 18 years before I was pregnant with my son.

Fuck I was coming right along with my,, my,,, oh fuck I don't think that's my husband, because he isn't that only not that long, but thick either. As soon as I regained my voice I said " Glen is that you?" He didn't say a word, just pulled out running for the door, as I said " Freeze right there!" He stopped as I turned on my bed side lamp seeing my son naked, with a somewhat hairy ass. I said " Turn around and look at me, now dam it!" He turned very slowly, but when I saw what now is mostly soft hanging between his legs. I gasped at the sight of it. It had to be at least 7 or more inches and so fucking thick, so how fucking big was it when it was hard for fuck sakes.

He moaned " Sorry mom." He's sorry. so everything is ok, like fuck it is, but I said " How could you? I'm your mother your own flesh and blood the woman who give birth to you, so how could you do that to me? HOW?" His shoulders went up, and then down like that was a answer to my question. All of a sudden I felt sick, very sick and just was able to reach the toilet in time throwing up. After I was done throwing up, what little was in my belly I went back into the bedroom finding it empty and the door standing open.

I stormed down the hall to my son's bedroom door which was closed and locked. I yelled at him to open his fucking door, yes in those words and I never swear out loud anyway. My daughter came out rubbing her eyes as she said " Mom what's happening?" I told her to go back to bed, which being the good little girl she is, she did even thou I seen the tears on her cheeks. I tried the door one more times finding the door nob turned in my hand.

I went in feeling my son's cum, and yes I know my cum to running down the inside of my thighs, as I said " Why would you do such a thing to me, please just tell me? " He had a clean pair of underwear on, but still it was bulged out in a way his dad could never do, when he said " I'm sorry mom, but your so, well, and being next to your hot, I mean, oh so hot, I just had to because you know, they won't, when they. you know see me, that's why mom. I know it was wrong, but I just, you know, and you seemed to be, you know." I know? I know nothing more then when he pulled out of me. So I said " No I don't know, so tell me? Who are they?" He went back to looking at the floor again before he said " The girls I go to school with, like my girlfriends, or what I thought were my girlfriends, but they only had heard about my, my, you know size, and then they won't even let me even kiss them."

My heart went out to my son, but he still fucked me, his own mother and bareback at that. I was just about to asked him, when I had to run again only making it to the sink in the main bathroom throwing up once again. That's when it hit me, my missed period, now throwing up. It was just like that every time I have been pregnant. My son was at the door watching me, as he said " Are you ok mom? Is there anything I can get you?" I snapped at him saying " Yes a new son who doesn't make his mom pregnant!" His eyes just about popped out of his head at the word 'pregnant ' " Are you, I mean has you and dad been, oh you mean, but I can't I'm your,,, can I?" I wiped my mouth turning to look at him before saying " Well genius, your a male if you didn't know, and I'm a female so yes, you can and I'm sure you did. Your dad is sterile after he had a doctor make him that way after your sister was born, so your fertile just like me genius. So just now long have you been doing this to me in my sleep?" I guess off and on maybe 3 months or so, but only if you didn't have any panties on that is."

I walked by him going to my bedroom closing and locking my door to think. It's Friday morning, so I cleaned up and got dressed going to a 24 hour drug store. I got two test kits which would tell me how long I have been, or even if I am even pregnant. I got home just as my son and daughter were heading out the door for school. My daughter said " Mom what's going on? He won't tell me anything." I only said " Go to school before your late for the bus." I went into the bathroom opened the package, sat down with the tester between my legs and nothing, I mean I couldn't pee no matter how hard I tried, not even a drop came out of me.

I had 4 cups of coffee, 3 large glasses of water, lifted some weighs, went on a mile long run before I was able to pee. I have never pee'd that hard in my life, but I just couldn't look at the tester. I wanted all of this to be a bad dream, and not knowing my own son had raped me in my sleep. I know he didn't think of it as rape, but that's what it is, isn't it. Yes I know I had a orgasm, well many orgasms but it's still rape I think but I'm I going to what call the cops on him? No, I can't do that I love him, well maybe not right now but I do love both my kids.

My son stayed it school doing his stuff with football, and my daughter was only home for a few minutes before heading to her friends for a sleepover. My husband gets off early most Fridays, so he got home before my son. He walked in giving me a kiss like always as I said " There's something on the counter in the main bathroom, can you tell me what it says please?" He looked at me like I was nuts, but in maybe 2 minutes he walked out with the tester in one hand, and the box in the other as he said " Who the fuck is he? No don't tell me just pack a bag and get the fuck out of my house now?" I got up saying " Our son has been raping me in my sleep." He was just about to grab me, when I said what I said. He stopped looking at the tester before the box again, before he said " It says 3 weeks."

I sat back down as he fell into his recliner before he said " You couldn't tell, I mean you had to have, didn't you feel him, you know, you slept through, you know, it?" Now I know where my son gets it from, before I said " I thought maybe it was you when I would wake up all sticking down there. I thought you just got horny in the middle of the night, but I woke up just as he was shooting his stuff in me this morning." I put my head in my hands as my husband said " You have to take that after pill that's all there is to it." I would've laughed at how dumb he was about this stuff before I said " That's only good within 72 hours of having someone cum in you." He sat back before he said " Well you could." I stop him right there, as I said " I will not murder a human being, even if it's only a few weeks old inside my body, so don't even ask me to do something like that, you hear me. Don't even say that word, because it's not happening."

Our son opened the front door just about then. " Get your fucking ass in here now!" my husband yelled. I heard "Oh shit, I'm in trouble, you better leave." his friend turned at the door leaving. Our son walked in with his dad who is a good 4 inches shorter then our son, was pointing the the chair across from his. I won't go into everything that was said, but I ended up ordering in because it lasted for hours, with first our son was never to enter our bedroom ever again, and he was grounded for the next 2 months, other then when he had something going on with his football stuff.

Well that was a year ago with our son now playing for a collage I won't name on a full scholarship, after having 5 collages wanting him. But he is a daddy even if we don't put it that way, but his son was 1 oz shy of 8 LBS at birth. His dad and me are going to raise him as our own child, with no one knowing any different other then him and us. How do I feel about being a mom again, well if I'm being truthful I love it, but once again, I kind of miss all those orgasms my son give me without me knowing it was him giving more pleasure then any other man in my life. I know I will never let him do that to me again, but I do wish I could let him do it just one more time, with me fully awake and facing him. I love looking into the eyes of my lover.