42F, divorced, I think I might be a slut now.

I was always conservative sexually. My husband was my first sex of anykind. I was 19 when we met, he was 22. He wanted sex and after a few dates asked me about it. I told him I'd never done anything. He convinced me that I should satisfy his needs with my hand, and mouth. Later he pressed and pressed and wanted to fuck. I wanted to wait until i was married, and I wanted that husband to be him. So he asked me to marry him, but on the night he asked, he also said he was going to fuck me, and keep me a virgin for our wedding. It was quite painful when he slipped what I didn't realize was a very thick cock into my butthole. I'd never even thought about having sex in my butt. I was always imagining it in my pussy. For the next year, it was my mouth and my butt and on our wedding night he broke my cherry as he put it. We had a lot of sex, he got what he wanted, I could cum when he'd go down on me which was only a couple times a month. I figured that was how it was as a married woman.

I got pregnant 3 times, one miscarriage and have two grown kids now. I am alone, divorced as he told me he needed someone who enjoyed sex, not just laid there. Hell I was a damn virgin and didn't know what to do, and he never said anything. Even with that I did anything he wanted. I'd go out in public in mini skirts and no panties, see through tops with no bra, I'd let him lift my skirt in public. In short I did anything he wanted. So now after 2 years divorced I finally went on a date with a man. He was nice, polite but at the end of the night, he pushed into my living room when I opened the door. and he pushed me down and fucked me right there in my living room. He came inside me then left saying what a nice time he had and he would call me later. He did call, I told him he raped me, but he said he didn't, he was just doing what was natural after a date ended. I went out with one other man who did not rape me. After 5 dates I asked him in and I gave him a blowjob. He was very grateful and thanked me ! I was expecting maybe he'd go down on me, as I was naked giving him his clothes BJ, or fuck me. No he zipped up and left. I called him four days later and hemming and hawing around said that he couldn't be with a slut. I was a slut? 5 dates and I give him a BJ which he loved, but I was a slut?

So I called the first guy back. Again, in my house, but in the bedroom I pushed his head down to my pussy and he ate me out like my ex never did. I came three times and pulled him up and had to have his cock in me again. "Is this rape?" he asked me "Shut up and fuck" I told him back. He liked it and liked the dirty talk so I kept on. The next night I went to a bar alone, and let a man take me to his hotel room and fuck me. I came from getting fucked for my first time. He fucked me three times that night. I wanted to stay but he said he couldn't let me. So now after 10 one nighters, and my rapist fucker, and 4 others guys I see regularly I've finally come into my own sexually. I cum from getting fucked, I cum from getting my pussy eaten (I've even done it with another woman) and I suck cock like a starved teenager. My daughter and I have always been pretty open and I've told her about my recent sexual history. First she was appalled that I didn't report my rapist fucker the first time he raped me. But that aside she said I am definitely a slut. With all those years with her dad and only occasionally having an oral orgasm she said I was due. Go ahead and be a slut just don't catch anything.

I called my rapist fucker and had him organize it. Next weekend, I'm having 8 men, all tested in a cheapo motel all fuck me all night. I plan to sleep over in the bed that has all that cum all over it, I'm not cleaning off my body or cleaning out my two lower holes. I want to sleep in my slutty, cum covered, motel bed till the morning. Then I'll not even clean up, I'll go home with it dried all over me and still leaking out of me and shower at home. Why not, after all, I'm a slut now.