Sleeping with my cousin's partner.

I made the mistake of sleeping with my cousin's partner. I don't regret it.

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I'd had an absolute shit 3 years.
My husband left me, my 2 oldest boys went with him as he had the money.
We had 3 boys 21, 19, 12 and finally my girl 10.
I was struggling to keep the house he'd signed over the mortgage to me, and ended up having to sell and move into a smaller, more affordable home.

My oldest son died in a car accident and I felt my world crumbling around me.

My cousin Jayne had rekindled a long lost relationship with an ex from 30 years.
They'd come help me around the yard before I had to move and I found him so wonderful and a positive person. I'd been selling kitchen ware, doing cooking displays and he'd offer to help setup tables and just be very supportive. I definitely had a crush.
I knew I had to back off as I was getting in too deep, I decided not to call him asking for help, then I  met a guy who was single and who was just as lovely as Rick.
As is always the case, the guy is met, Aaron, after a discussion, moved in with me but then needed a shoulder operation and I became his nurse.
He went to visit his brother one weekend. Rick called in on his own, as he and Aaron had gotten on well and Rick would often drop in on his way home from work.
Jayne worked afternoon's quite often so there was no hurry for him to get home.

Rick had told Aaron he and Jayne really weren't meant to be together, in his words,
"He broke up with her years ago for a reason, and she hadn't changed."

I drink too much when I'm depressed, this was one of those times and I was telling Rick how I was over Aaron, how I felt he used me by moving in before his op, he wasn't the romantic guy he made out to be and he really was a nasty drunk.

Rick stood up and offered me a hug.
I melted in his arms.
And I kissed him. OH MY GOD.
I truly have never had a kiss like this.
Our kiss was the most passionate kiss.
Our mouths just matched. There was like a vacuum seal around our lips. I'd never had a kiss so good.
Then, he held onto my DD, titties. I cum a little. I was rubbing my thighs together, trying not to let him know what had happened.

We seriously kissed for ten full minutes.
"I'd better leave, before I do something YOU will regret later." He said, grabbed his keys and walked out.
I didn't say a word, I would have said, 'I won't regret a thing', instead, I let him walk out the door.

To show what a real gentleman he is, the next day, Saturday, he came around, knocked on the door and asked if he could come in.

"Firstly I want to say how I enjoyed the kiss last night," I went to interrupt him and say how embarrassed I was, but he didn't let me say a word. "I know you'd had too much to drink and I figured you'd feel bad about what happened, and I'm sorry for grabbing your boobs, but I don't want you to do something you'd regret, so let's just not mention it again,"

"I don't regret a thing, you made me feel alive, that kiss, wow. It was something else and I actually cum from just that, Aaron and I haven't had sex for a few months and you just made me so fucking horny." I stepped towards him, kissed him and put his hand on my tit, squeezed his hand then put my hand on his butt.

He had me a wet mess in no time.
I broke from the kiss, kissing his neck and nibbling his ear,
"Rick, I need this so much, please don't leave."
I looked into his eyes, took his hand leading him to my bedroom, he didn't try to stop me.

I don't have a great body, I'd lost a real lot of weight and had flabby skin around my tummy and always dressed in baggy clothes to hide it, I'd become accustomed to wearing a singlet and slipping my arm out and leaving it around my body. He insisted I take it off.
I was naked in front of a man for the first time in many years. He was slim, muscley fit looking and I was wet just looking at his wonderful body.

I went to grab his cock, but he asked me to lay on the bed so he could "kiss my other lips." something Aaron didn't enjoy doing.
Rick massaged my feet the kissed each of my toes, I do have pretty feet I must admit but never had this kind of treatment.
He licked and kissed his way to my very wet pussy.

The way he approached sex was so different to how I'd become used to.
This was so romantic, so sensual, so fucking good, no wonder Jayne loved him.

He brushed my cunt lips with the tips of his fingers, brushing his fingernails ever so lightly, then over my mons Venus, sending tingling sensations right to my cunt.
I rubbed my thighs together as I felt my clit swelling. I was moaning softly. This man definitely knew how to make me happy.
His tongue licked my wet cunt slit ever so gently with the tip of his tongue, it was so delightful, and I was groaning softly the entire time.
He then slid two fingers easily inside me as I was so wet.
His tongue flicked my clit and I think I actually started crying, I'd never been made feel so incredibly good, ever.
My legs, now bent up at my knees, giving him full access, his hand found my big boob, my nipple very erect and had the attention of his thumb and finger, flicking and pinching it.

"Oh my fucking god Rick, I'm going to fucking cum, ahhhh goooooood yeesssssss, uuuuhhhhh ffuuuuuck," and I felt my body shudder, I tried lifting his face away, I was so sensitive, but he carried on, his fingers pounding me. His tongue licking and he sucked my clit, then I began thrashing my hips and for the first time in my 46 years, I squirted, everywhere but he carried on, not missing a beat. This man was wonderfully relentless, and I loved it.

He finally stopped, wiping his face and smiling at me, while I tried to catch my breath.

"Hmm someone was a bit horny." I just smiled, a nervous but happy smile.

"What the fuck have you just done to me?" I said, still breathless, "I've never had that happen ever before,"

"Oh I'm sorry," he laughed

"No don't be, but how did you make that happen?" he just smiled as he put my nipple in his mouth, oh god I felt so alive.
Moving his body, He got between my legs, sat up and got his very hard cock ready to enter my body.
"Are you sure you want to do this,"

"Just fuck me already," I said, grabbing his cock, guiding him into me.
"Ohhhh fuck, your cock feels wonderful,"
I immediately started thrusting against him, and he let out a little chuckle, which I found odd. I wrapped my arms and legs around him, I never wanted this to end, or maybe for him to leave. I hadn't been made to feel this good, or made love to in many years.

He slowly began fucking me, then we kissed and again, our kiss was as it was the first time, it was perfect.
I was so into the kiss, I almost forgot about his cock inside me, but I got back into the entire experience.
This man, no wonder my cousin wanted him in her life.
"Oh god Rick, I'm going to cum, oh fuck you have me feeling so good, ohhhh god, faster babe, harder, yes, like thaaaaat aaaaaah god mmmmm yeeesssss OHHH Fuuuuuck meeeeeeeeeee,"
I exploded. I cum, my body thrashing, bucking, I was trying to throw him off my body but I never want him to let me go.

I eventually stopped, he was still pounding me,
"Ohh fuck Kerry, I need to cum, do you want me to pull out?"

"Hell no,"
With that, he cum so hard, his "O" face was just perfect, veins popping out of his forehead, red-faced, teeth grit. I loved it.
We kissed again as my hips started slowly gyrating.

I wanted him to spend the night, but Jayne was going to be home soon so he was dressing to leave and his phone rang.
Jayne had been asked to do a double shift.
He told her he'd been asked out for an overnight fishing trip on a friend's boat, which actually did happen, and told  her he'd be back probably mid morning tomorrow.
We heated some spag Bol I'd had in the freezer then showered together.

He made me feel so good about myself as I'd always been self conscious of how I looked. He made me embrace how I looked and while he had no fat on him, he wasn't put off by my body, he was just a great guy and an unbelievable lover.

He explained about his relationship with Jayne was not great. He told me he'd never slept with her when they were together last time, not even oral. Now she was just a starfish and sex was boring.

I wanted to give myself to him, but knew it could never be. I resigned myself to realise this was probably the first and only time we'd be together. Jayne wouldn't ever speak to me again, the rest of our family would hate me and I still had Aaron to deal  with.
We spent the night fucking in so many positions, I squirted two more times that night and felt so good about myself before a final kiss goodbye as he went back Home to boring sex with my boring cousin.

They came over to visit during the week. I was concerned about how I'd feel.
To my surprise, I had no regret, no guilt, no reaction at all really. Rick was his normal, wonderful self. Jayne and I were just the same, The only one who felt out of place was Aaron, but he was feeling like that as he is a chef but with his arm out of action, he has to be waited on which I know he finds difficult.

I sent Rick a message asking him to help change the gas bottle on our bbq. Aaron was going to be spending one night at his brother's house, but didn't mention that.

I might write again if there's anything worth reporting. Which I have a feeling is very possible.