I still think about Lydia and wonder

Not a really a sex story more of a thinking out loud

I still think about the second girl I ever fucked, we were both young and 20 years later I still have questions about that night.

She wasn't my usual type that I typically went for, we all tried to get the coolest most popular girls. Lydia wasn't that, she was half goth/emo, dark hair, dark makeup with big pouty lips and massive tits, the best I'd seen were nice C cups by this stage and Lydia was a fair few letters down the line so I thought fuck it and fuck what everyone's gonna say I'm going for it.

We went out on a date that ended in alot of dry humping and frustration because I didnt think to bring a condom, they never put out on the first date. He'll I dated girls weeks and barely gotten wet fingers so I was excited to say the least about our next meet.

I went to hers, we chilled in her room before she suggested we go for a walk. Youthful adventures sneaking around parents were the best! We went to the woods a short way behind her house and she lay down on my jacket and pulled her jeans off. We fumbled around, kissing mainly until I slipped a condom on and lined up. My first time was with another virgin and looking back I know now she wasn't wet and ready enough because the friction was too much, felt like I'd snapped it! This however was the complete opposite end of the scale, I bottomed out instantly in her pussy with zero feeling like fuck all, nothing. I assumed i wasn't even inside the bitch and looked down amazed to see my pubes firmly pressed against her meaty folds. We fucked for like 5 minutes until I rolled over for her ride me instead but my inexperience with condoms meant I didn't think to hold the base and it slipped off and she refused to let me back inside her bare. Smart girl tbf.

It left me wondering for months until I found a steady girlfriend and started to enjoy sex properly. Why was it so bad? Was it the condom? Was my it my dick? Was it her, had she been stretched out beyond use I wondered? We were young and inexperienced, well I was, turns out she'd slept with quite a few people and one of was rumoured to be hung so I assumed it was that but found out only months later the joys and elasticity of young vaginas. Even now 20 years later, married with kids and using all sort of sex toys I have never managed to make my wife feel that loose on my cock. I have never met another vagina that wide and I have travelled far in my time. Most feel great, warm, wet and snug and there are those few that few great, tight, responsive and always hungry and every now and again a meh one, one to forget but I'll never forget Lydia and will always wonder what that girl did to make it so dam loose!