I think my brother wants to fuck me

Me and my brother have always been close. Something happened last night that leads me to believe he wants to be closer.

I’m in my mid 20’s, my brother is 3 years older. We’re close, we hang out at least once a week if not more, he’s my best friend. I’m short and slim, but curvy in all the right places. he’s tall tatted and muscular. Last night he came over, we did our usual thing of getting fast food and playing video games and wrestling all night. We always roughhouse every time we see eachother, it’s been our thing for forever, it’s fun and we both love it. He always gets me pinned because he’s much bigger and stronger than me but I always wriggle out or pinch or bite at him until I’m free. I fight back for a bit until he ultimately gets me pinned again. What first clued me in to the fact that he may want me, is the positions he kept pinning me in. It wasn’t the usual me folded like a pretzel so I can’t fight back while he tries to drip spit on my face or pick my nose or fart on me or whatever other stupid older brother torture method he had cooked up. This time whenever he pinned me, it was in position that had a far different connotation. His dick would always be firmly planted on my ass or my thighs or my crotch. And instead of his usual pranks, he would hold me in place with one hand and tickle me with the other. All while pressing his cock into me. I didn’t really pick up on what he could have been actually trying to do until he happened to pin me in my favorite sex position, which he knew from a drunken night of truth or dare with a group of friends where we all had to share our favorite positions. So there we were on the couch, I was face down ass up, his hand around my neck while he straddled my ass. I realized immediately what position he had put me in. My heart started beating faster and I froze for a few seconds unsure of what to think. Maybe it was a coincidence? Then he leaned down and growled in my ear like he does when we play, and then moved his hand from my throat to covering my mouth and laid in on the tickles. His hand muffled my screams and squeals. I started thrashing about to escape his fingers, but he was quite literally holding my ass down with his cock. I hadn’t noticed before, but he was grinding into me while I was distracted with being tickled. He eventually let up with his tickles and slumped over me, both of us breathing heavily. His head was resting on my upper back, his hands gripped my hips. Now that the movement stopped, I felt it. A definitive throbbing against my ass. He was hard. It didn’t feel like a little oopsie boner either. He was full mast, hot and pulsating. All while firmly pressed against his little sisters ass. Seconds after this realization he gave my hips a little squeeze and rolled off of me and plopped down on the couch. “Wanna watch a movie?” He asked nonchalantly as he pulled my bare legs over to rest on his lap, my thighs conveniently hiding his boner. He put on a trashy horror movie, the kind we love. But I was having a hard time paying attention. His hand rested on my thigh his finger absentmindedly stroking my soft flesh. that wasn’t too out of the ordinary, but the fact that I could still feel the heat and the pulse of his cock through his jeans, pressed up against my resting thighs was. At some point I fell asleep during the movie, when I half woke up my brother was “asleep” wrapped around me wearing just his boxers. What woke me up was his slight but persistent movement. I was on my back, he laid at my side with his arm wrapped around my belly and his leg draped over one of mine. I felt his cock more clearly and intensely this time, because the only thing separating us now was his boxers. It was hard and throbbing and he was humping it into my hip. His movements were very slow and very slight. I assumed he was trying not to wake me. But sure enough he was thrusting against me. I could even feel the ridge of his cock head as it dragged up and down the length of my hip. I know it’s wrong, but it got me a little excited. I was ovulating and hadn’t had dick in so long, as soon as I felt what was happening my pussy immediately paid attention. I wasn’t sure if he was awake or just doing it in his sleep just yet. And I was still unsure of how I felt about the situation despite my body’s response. I let out a little groan and shifted slightly to see if he was awake and let him know I might be waking up. His slow grinding came to a stop. He was awake. I wondered if he would continue after I “fell back asleep”. I let my breathing deepen and even out. After a while of me pretending to be asleep he began his small slight movements again. The second it began my pussy throbbed in excitement. It took everything in me to keep my breathing under control. His cock gently rocked into my hip. His hand which had been gently laid on my belly gripped ever so slightly. I let this go on for a little while. My head and my cunt both yelling for opposite reasons. My mind said it was wrong but my body was on fire. I decided to experiment. The next push into me, I gently moved my hip to press back into him. His fingers tightened and he pressed more firmly and held it against me for several seconds. I heard his breathing catch. He liked that. I continued to push back into him with each thrust. What started out as barely noticeable movements gradually ramped up in intensity to full on humping. His breath was quick and hot his hand grabbing at my hip. When all of a sudden he stopped and pulled away. Fuck I thought to myself. I was really starting to enjoy that. He sat up breathing heavily. I cracked my eye open. He sighed and ran his fingers through his long dark hair. He took a few rips off his vape, adjusted his dick and then laid back down. He laid down in the same position but didn’t continue the hump. I was a little disappointed. I could still feel his boner and he had gotten me all riled up. I wiggled my hip into him under the guise of changing position. His cock throbbed in response. My pussy shivered in delight. I wanted him to start humping again. I moved my hip again. This earned me a gentle squeeze from his hand a single press with his cock. I let out a very small almost inaudible moan. He pressed his cock into me again and I moved my hips to meet him. He started his slow gentle movements again but it wasn’t enough for me. I wanted the full blown fast and hot thrusts again. My pussy took control. I started squeezing my thighs together, gripping the leg he had draped over me with him. I was rolling my hips humping the air while he dug into my side. I was letting out little gasps and moans being careful to keep them quiet and sleepy but I could barely control myself. Shivers ran through me. I was about to cum without my cunt even being touched. Just from the feeling of my older brother ramming his cock into my hip. It hit me. My breath caught my cunt spasmed a shiver ran though me. I kept myself as quiet and as still as I could. My pj shorts were soaked. I settled down, rolling my hips much more subtly while he humped. I think he felt the orgasm run through me and rubbed the hip he rested his hand on gently before giving it a squeeze. I shifted, releasing the grip my thighs had on his leg and letting one of my legs flop out to the side. I sighed sleepily. He adjusted his position and this time instead of resting his hand in the same position on my hip, his hand landed on my mound. Fuck. My heartbeat picked up again. You can accidentally hump in your sleep all you want but putting your hand on your little sisters cunt is no accident. I rolled my hips just go gauge his reaction. He let his hand dead weight and be carried downward by the movement of my hips. I did it again. His fingers slipped lower. He was no longer just resting his hand on my mound his fingers were now definitively resting on my slit. He grunted and sighed ever so slightly. His pointer finger gently started stroking the seam of my pj shorts. I wonder if he felt how wet I was. It was at this point my brain kicked in again and realized exactly what I was allowing to happen. I was two layers of fabric away from letting my older brother finger me. For some reason that felt worse than the dry humping we had just committed under the guise of us both being asleep. I panicked and rolled over. My ass facing him. He settled his cock into my ass crack and rubbed my ass cheek and upper thigh and settled into a slight gentle rocking. I fell asleep like that and by the time I woke up he had already left. Immediately after I woke up I ran to my room and fucked myself silly thinking about what had happened. I wonder if he jacked off about it too. Ever since then my cunt has been insatiable. I’ve never been so turned on in my life. I know it’s wrong, but as long as we’re “asleep” we have plausible deniability right? I can say it was all a dirty dream, or that we weren’t in control of whatever happens. Next time he comes over I think I won’t wear panties under my shorts.