A cheater's mind

Us cheaters mind run on how our love life is.Bad love life, happy and excited to fuck new men, happy love life feel guilty but still want to do it.

Since I wrote about i miss cheating and how fun it was,I guess I have to tell ya what I think each time I cheated, before, during and after..lol

When this guy of 20 years older tell me he want to fuck me because he like me, I didn't think of anything and didn't even hesitated but agree to meet him to fuck. But people always say maybe because I was to young(21years old) to think for myself and got manipulate but now that I think about it, it was not that.
Sitting in hes car on the way to the motel,I'm thinking how fun it well be fucking another man beside my husband.
Arriving at the motel, im sitting in the car waiting for him to get a room.
I was kinda scared, dont know how we gonna start, dont know how fast he fuck, how hard hes going to be, how many positions hes gonna want, does he want to kiss? . Etc. ... questions after questions run through my mind, scare but existed at the same time.
Finely he come out of the office, open my door,held my hand to help me get out of the car and following each other to the room holding each other hands.

Sitting on the bed next to each other, he start by massaging my shoulders. I close my eyes, it feels so good and relaxing, I feel hes warm lips pressing on mine. I pull away, thinking of my husband, is this right ?, what what he think if he knows?, what's gonna happen to my life if he find out?, can he satisfy me like my husband?, imma gonna satisfy him ?.. etc.. so many questions.
He kiss me again, lower hes hands to my boobs, to my waist, pull hes hands under my shirt, unhook my bra. Take them off, laying me down slowly on the bed. Him on top of me kissing my, sucking on my titties. My body get hot, my pussy get wet, then I forget about my husband, my life, my kids
Letting him rape my body slowly by fingering me fast and hard, I maon of pleasure, open my legs wide so he can enjoy my pussy.
I feelt his cock to see if is the same size as my husband.
When he rub his cock on my pussy. I'm wonder if hes gonna fuck me raw or hes gonna use protection. What about if he fuck me raw and loaded me up with hes cums, is my husband gonna know the difference if he fuck me tonight?

" do you have protection?" I finely ask

" It is raw better?"

I just smile, pull him closer to me, kiss him

" fuck me now, fuck me hard" I whisper

We fucked raw. He trusted in and out fast and hard.
He flip me over, I started rocking his hard cock, pulling my head backwards and arch my back to get his cock in deeper. We both cum and scream loud of pleasure.

As he drove me back to my car. I keep myself quiet, wondering what's gonna happen when I get home, will he know, well he ask me questions that I dont have answers to it, what kind of excuses imma say to make it realistic of why im come home so late.
We kiss each other good bye.

" I see you tomorrow at work . I can't wait until we can fuck again, I love the way you rock my cock" He say

" yeah I see you tomorrow, and I dont know when we can do it again " I replied with smile on my face

The drive home: - by myself in the car driving home. I'm thinking " the sex was that much different, I don't think i want to fuck him again".
Arriving home. Walk fast and quickly to the bedroom so I can take a shower before he notice anything unusual.
That evening he didn't ask any questions, after dinner, we fucked and he didn't say anything so I asume he didn't notice anything different.

As the time goes, is was more confident about fucking orther guys.
Each new guy that I fuck I learn new things, like sucking their cocks, doggy style and the worse thing i experienced when I didn't the first time it was anal and wide cocks.
But once i get a wide cock, regular size or average cant make you feel good anymore.
The longer i cheat the more confidence gain and less im scare and the better excuses i come with.
I fucked all my side men raw, end up pregnant 2 or 3 times not sure who is the father so I convinced my husband to get an abortion.
After I give birth to my 4 kids, I fix myself so I can fuck freely.
Now, I been cheat on my man for more the 10 years and more then 20 men, each time when i go out to fuck, my mind only think of happiness, how wide hes going to be, how long he last, how much cum imma get, how hes gonna suck my clito, my hoobs ( happy thoughts only). I have to admit it, cheat does bring a spice to my sex life.
I fucked raw, I dont like protection, even tho I dont know the guy.
Me asking the first man if he have protection was i mistake now that I think about it.

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