Abusive father, fuck mother

Growing up, my father was the worse. He used to come home drunk and hit both me and my older brother for no reason sometimes. He never used to hit us to injure us, but he would yell and scream and just behave badly. We were scared of him. My mother would stand up sometimes to him but he would even hit her sometimes. When was was not drunk, he was okay. My mother was different. She used to try her best to protect us. As the smaller one, she used to baby me. When ever he’s not around and me and her alone at home, we used to spend time together. I remember lying down on the side while she’s watching tv with my head on her upper things. I used to put my hands around her waist and she never said anything. I guess she thought I was just being loving but I was actually feeling her up. This feeling started when I was about 11 years old. As time when by, the abuse, both physically and verbally got worse from my dad. He and my mother used to fight often. I would leave and don’t come back 2-3 days later. Now that I’m older, I realize that he had other women with my dad and she knew and she was not happy. As I got to 12 to 13 years, I started to take notice of my mother more. She was a tall woman, about 5 feet 8 inches tall. She was not fat but was well built. Big butt and big beasts and a nice face. I began to be more aggressive with her. I knew she was unhappy with my dad so I tried to be there for her while observing her sexually. I began to do things to her that’s more sexual. I would peep her her while she was showing. I would try to walk in on her while she was naked. I would lay on her lap, like when I was younger, and put my hands on her thick and clear and soft things. Sometime, while she was watching tv, I would pretend to fall asleep on her lap and put my hand on her things. I would move my hands slowly up and she would move them away. As time went on, I kept doing more. I would try to feel her up. I remember this one time, I don’t know what happen to me but I was lying on her lap and push my hands between her legs until I touch her pussy. I did not got a good feel up because she quickly move my hands and close her legs. That didn’t stop me, it just embodied me. Knowing that she didn’t say anything, made me bolder. One day, I’m not sure what happen, but she was fighting with my dad. It was around 6:30pm. I don’t know what happen but I heard her crying and my dad walk out upset. After he left, I went to her room. The lights were off and room was dimmed. When I open the door, I notice my mother on the bed, on her side. She was facing the wall. I went over and put my hands on her side and asked if she was okay. She replied in a crying voice and said yes. She said that she had enough on my dad and could not take it anymore. I pitied her but I also had other ideas. I wanted to take the opportunity to feel her up. She was wearing a light color dress and because of the position she was in, he legs was exposed all the way up. Even though the room was not bright, I could see her long clear legs. It made me aroused. I began to agree with her that my dad was a jerk and hugged her by putting my head on hers. As I did that, I told her to stop crying. She wiped her eyes and turned a little where she was now almost on her back. As she turned, her legs were apart and since her dress were pulled up, I could see her panties. I got too excited and my heart began to beat so fast because I wanted to feel her up. I talked with her about another 30 seconds and then don’t know what happened to me. All I know is that I place my hands directly on her crutch and felt her pussy from the outside. Her legs was spread a little so I was able to have a good feel. I felt it was warm and I felt her pussy lips. Within a few seconds, I slip my hand down the front of her panties and into her pussy area. I could feel a lot of hair but could not locate her pussy (bring 12 or 13 at the time and never saw or felt a real pussy before). After a few more seconds, I just my hand a little further down and that’s when I felt her wet pussy. I began to rub it and felt the opening, which felt wet. A few seconds later, she grab my hand and pull it away from her. She jumped up and walked out the bedroom. I got scared for a second because I thought she was gonna yell at me and even tell my father. My older brother was upstairs and did not hear anything. I then left her room and went upstairs too. I lay in bed thinking about everything. I thought, wow, I was able to feel her pussy. I was so excited. I then began to rationalize in my head that she will never tell my father because she knew what he would have done to me. As I lay on the bed and my hormones was still going, I put a plan in place.
I did everything normal the rest of the night but I had a plan. She yelled at my room and told me to take a shower before bed and she left food for me and my brother on the kitchen table. I took a shower, and excited about my plan. I had dinner and then went back to my room. My brother was downstairs watching tv. She was in her room. It was about 11pm when I heard my father came home. I listen for the way he was talking and behaving and I knew he was drunk. It was about midnight when everyone was in bed. My brother was fast asleep. I checked before I left the room. My was wearing only a boxer (the one with an opening in the front) on purpose. I also wore a t shirt. I walked to their room and the door was cracked as usual. I open it slowly and tip toed towards the door of the bed. My dad was snoring and fast asleep on his stomach. My mother was on her side but facing my dad. They were both covered with a clear blanket but the blanket was only overnight half of my dad. I then creep into the bed, on the side next to my mother. Neither one of them moved. I lay next to her and slowly, got under the covers too. I stayed quiet to make sure my dad was drunk and he did not move. I position myself behind her and put my left hand on her hips first. She did not move. I them moved down the blanket slowly from her until her butt area was exposed. I then put my hands on her legs and she moved a little so I stopped. I then put my hand on her panties and began to rub her. At that time, I was going to execute my plan 100%. Here is my plan. If my dad was drunk, I will feel her up and try to fuck her. I was going to do that because I knew that she was not going to tell him or wake him up because she knew what he would have done to me. I was rubbing her butt area through her panties but then decide to try to fuck her. I began by putting my index finger under the edge of her panties on inner thighs and get to her pussy. At that time, she was awake. She grab my hands and open her eyes wide and whisper to me that my father was right there. I replied that I did not care. She said he will wake up and I said no, he will beat me. She was now on her back so I began to do more. I forced myself until I was able to lie on her. I knew I was gaining because she was scared to wake my dad so she was not fully resisting. I got myself on her with her legs spread. We wrestled for about 5 to 8 minutes and I was not giving in. She kept saying to stop but I ignored her. Eventually, her legs was spread and I was directly between them. My dad did not move. I then took my right hand and try to remover her panties. She fought this for about another 8 minutes. I was not giving in. Eventually, she stop resisting and I was able to remove her panties while I was still on her. She was begging me for I stop but I did not. I took my right hand and rub her pussy. I’m felt the wetness. I even remember her telling me that let her get up and we can go downstairs and she will let me but I did not trust her. My cock was fully erected now so it was not hard getting it into her pussy. I guide it as she was now fighting a little. I can still remember the instant it enter her pussy. I felt as it pass the opening and as it enter her. Her pussy was so warm. I began to fuck her. I was pushing hard but she whisper for me to be quiet. I slow down and began thinking I fuck her more. As I was fucking her, I was also kissing her but she move her face. I fuck her for about 5 minutes until I felt that funny feeeling and my head began to hurt(in a good way). I remember as I was cumin, I push harder and harder into her and she moan a little. She was telling me to take it out but at that age, I did not understand what or why so I did not and came in her. I lay on her for another minute until she said to go. I got off the bed slowly and went straight to my room. The next day, I did not leave my room until about 9am because I was scared and did not know what to expect. She never mention anything to me or anyone else about that night. This was 15 years ago and she’s now 55 years old and I’m 28.