My wife has been cheating me and she thinks I don't know about it

My wife has been cheating on me and she doesn't know that I know that she's cheating on me , infact I am kinda turned on by it .

My wife(28 female) and I( 29 male ) got married 3 years ago , it was an arranged marriage as we come from Indian family, but we dated for a year before getting married, so in total we have been together for 4 years.

Let's start from the beginning, my wife lets call her sakshi was a nurse 4 years ago when my mom's friend told my mom about her , and that her parents are finding some guy for marriage. Our parents did some talking and told us to get to know each other . The first time I saw her was when our family got together for a dinner , there were almost 20-25 people at that dinner . We didn't get the chance to talk much . We started texting from that day , I asked her if we could meet somewhere,only 2 of us . We went on a date and had fun , she looked so hot and everything was going pretty well .

After 4 months of dating , we got quite close to each other , we decided to go somewhere, so we planned a trip to goa , for anyone who doesn't know what goa is , it's a tiny place in india with many beautiful beaches. We checked-in , when we were going to our room we noticed that there were two black guys in the room next to ours , I didn't think anything about that . But sakshi wasn't fond of them , I told her there was nothing to worry about . Later that night we went for a nice dinner , she was wearing black leggings and gray , her ass looked magnificent in that . I remember as we were about to leave I grabbed her by her waist and started grinding on her ass , I wanted to fuck but she said she was tired and not in the mood , she just wanted to go to dinner, I squeezed her ass and then we left . After dinner we thought of going to a club , we did and those two black guys were there , they smiled at us , and I smiled back at them but my sakshi didn't. Sakshi and I were dancing having fun when those two guys came close to us and one of the guy grabbed her waist and was dancing along with her . She shoved him aside I saw it and was about to yell at him , but other guy was blocking me . That guy then again tried to dance with her , this time I pushed him and threw a punch at him , it didn't do much damage to him , then other guy pushed me and I fell on the ground then both of them punched me , security came and threw them out , I was bleeding through my nose , sakshi suggested we go home cos I was bleeding and she was tired . We got back to our room it was around 1 am and she told me to lie down and get some rest and I did . I woke up next morning at around 8 am and noticed that sakshi was in shower . I decided to join her I got naked and went in , I saw her clothes from yesterday I realised that she didn't change into her nightdress. I figured she just fell asleep in this. She looked like she was still tired , I quickly peed and went into the shower . This time I didn't ask her and just grabbed her waist,pulled her towards me ,bent her over and started fucking her . After shower she said she was going to go to a saloon . I decided to stay in our room cos it was hot out there . I was watching tv and out of nowhere I got notification that someone was trying to airdrop to me something. I thought of ignoring it but decided to accept it and see what's inside. What I saw was the most traumatic moment of my life , apparently after I fell asleep, sakshi had went to next room and fucked those two guys , they sent me a note saying "your fiancee get turned on when someone humiliates her fiancee " . I cried for almost 15 minutes, but idk why I was so turned on seeing her getting fucked by those two men. There's no denying that I am indian and I have 4-5 inch long dick , those guys dick was atleast 8-9 inches long and it was thick . I jerked off to those pics .

That night I pretended to fall asleep and after 30 minutes she got up and left the room, I could hear her moaning through the wall . I decided to keep this information to myself and move forward with this engagement. After we got married we moved to USA and since day 1 in usa I was wishing for watching her fuck some other guy . 2 months later I went through her phone and found sexual text between her and my friend that I made in usa. There were other 3-4 guys , but with my friend it was happening at that time. Sometimes I know when she goes to fuck him , I call her just so I could hear her lie about her whereabouts and the fact that she's busy cheating on me .

I was so desperate to watch her getting fucked by someone that one day I just confronted her about this , she broke down crying but I could see there was no regret in her eyes . After hours of her crying and begging to me , I straight up told her that I wanna see her fuck some other guy infront of me . She was shocked to hear that z I explained to her that I fantasies about her getting fucked by people. Next day I invited my friend , we sat on the couch , he was so good at hiding what was going on . He pretended to be my friend really well . Then I gave signal to my wife , she sat next to him and placed her hands on his crotch , he couldn't believe what was happening , she started sucking his cock , which she never did to me . She got on top of him and started fucking, her back was facing me for few minutes I just watched her ass getting bounced on his lap , then I told her to face towards me so I could see her face . We locked out eyes into each other , she was frowning , I came immediately. They went on for another 15 minutes.

Since then I have seen her fucking almost 23 guys , it's been 3 years into our marriage and we have never been happier. I would never tell this to anyone, but I am writing this because last week we were at my office party , we decided that we would pick some guy for her to fuck. We saw this talk black man , she went there to talk with him . But unfortunately my colleagues wanted me to stay longer . I told her that we would pick him some other time ,I told her to just got home and sleep .

It got pretty late , it was around 4 am when I got home and found my wife and that guy naked in my bed sleeping, I yelled at my wife , that man woke up and started apologizing to me . But when I said to my wife " I told you to not fuck him unless I am there " , he got confused and became silent, he couldn't understand what was going on . My wife then said " sorry I couldn't control myself, but you can watch us fuck now " . I agreed and she then explained him what we wanted to do , he was so into it, he quickly started face fucking her. He was getting very brutal, I told him to calm down , he told me to shut the fuck up. When he said that I knew my wife was getting more turned on. I put my hands on his shoulder to tell him to calm down he pushed me I fell down. Then he started fucking her , idk why but he was very harsh with her , he was slapping her a lot . I could literally see her tears coming out , when I told him to calm down this time , he got up and knocked me out , I sat on our chair , I was feeling so dizzy I could move . I saw my wife's face she was so turned on by seeing me like this. After 30 minutes he came in her pussy while I was still sitting on chair cos I couldn't move much . He had destroyed her body, then he told her to get up and make me eat his cum from her ass . Without hesitation she got up , stood in front of me and turned her back towards me and then she bent over in a way that her ass was infront of me , she then grabbed my hair and pulled my head towards her ass and then she started rubbing her asshole with my head , I wasn't eating her asshole at that time , she in very sexual voice said " babe please dont be like this , just eat his cum from my asshole " , I did what she said .

I enjoyed that very much , but I am still mad at her for fucking him first without me being there . I hope we still continue this routine. Our family apparently found out about this , and they have cut contact with us . Sakshi and I both aren't talking with anyone of our family, it's just me and her .