How I discovered/confirmed I was bi

I start to discover the joys of other dicks

My name is Ken. I'm 40m, happily married with a kid. Over the last 15 years ive realized that im kinda bi - i dont find men attractive but i love the idea of cocks, specifically blowjob's.

I'd recently been introduced to 'cruising' on sniffies, basically met up with a group of guys in a bathroom near the main downtown area inlive in and had a big ol circle jerk. It was a lot of fun, but i always said, oh well, no one else was touching me, I'm not touching anyone, I'm still straight (hehe).

Then came last Thursday. I was really horny so I thought I would do my circle jerk on my lunch break instead of after work. I only found two guys (one a college student and the other was older than me), but they were more interested in each other than me. I Watched as the young guy made the older guy cum, but he immediately ran out of the bathroom in a panic leaving the young guy there unbelievably hard. So I did what I thought was the right thing to do, I walked up to him, started stroking his cock and whispered in his ear "cum for daddy". I'll never forget the look on his face when he exploded Cumming. After a moment,He asked me to fuck his ass, but I politely declined because I was straight (hehe) and he left and I went back to work, absolutely blue-balled. So I did what the most normal thing was: I started googling and found an adult video store with "viewing areas" about 5 minutes from my work! I happily finished work, told my boss I was leaving early, and walked to the Video Store.

When I arrived, i paid admission, and the clerk told me "so the middle floor is straight, and the top floor is gay". I smiled, but said nothing else - which prompted him to say "there are some private booths for...well...I mean...you do know what's happening there right?" To which I laughed and said "of course, that's why I'm here".

I walked up to the gay area to watch a video of a young European man get tag teamed by two other European men, with 4 or 5 guys in the room. But no one was near booths, no one had their cocks out, it was such a disappointment. So I got up in frustration and started walking to the booths. One was full, with a guy on his knees sucking a cock, but the others weren't. But then, my prayers were answered.

As I was about to head for the exit, I noticed a man walking out of a secluded area I didn't notice before. He saw me and stopped. I slipped my hand into my pants and undid my belt, and he backed back into the secluded area and got on his knees. It was so dark that there's absolutely othing I can tell you about this man - other than the way he sucked my cock was the best blowjob I've ever had in my life. He licked and swirled his tongue across my entire length, and I was in absolute heaven. My wife doesn't enjoy giving blowjobs, but this stranger was sucking my cock like sucking cock gave him life.

At one point I put my hand on his head and started moaning ,and then he started rubbing my balls while he sucked me. Then I could feel every muscle in my body tense up as I had the biggest orgasm ive ever had right in this strangers mouth (I think it was the loudest too, don't think I've moaned so loud cumming before)

He swallowed my load, thanked me, and left. And now that I had some post nut clarity about what I just did(specifically the unprotected blowjob), I left too.

Since then, I can't stop thinking about going back, not just to get sucked again, but to suck cock too.

Yeah I know, I'm something else